It took me 5 years to realize I probably needed to process it.
So I built up the courage to actually go through an old photo album...
Little did I know, she had written me notes at each picture
And my 'Clint Eastwood-act' went down Niagara Falls.
"The strongest thing a man can do is cry, to expose your feelings, to be vulnerable in front of the world. That's real strength" - Jay Z
It was an emotional couple of days, but by dealing with it - I had a breakthrough.
For the previous 5 years, the child in me refused to move on.
I was being a kid, running away from it.
Keeping everything inside, wondering why this happened TO me...
Why is it that she had to leave when I was 31 - while other 50-year old guys don't even call their Mom for Christmas?
But after getting vulnerable...
I changed my perspective. And I viewed it as it happened FOR me.